Monday, April 28, 2014

long lost friend

This space feels like a long lost friend whenever I rediscover this thing and then am reminded how freeing it is to write out my thoughts. I was (and still am) that girl that LOVES the idea of journals. I love buying, sharing, and just the prospect of writing in them. But at the end of the day, I never finish one journal. I forget about them, lose them, then rediscover them. It's almost like a character flaw- why can't I keep track of one? Why can't I sit down long enough to write my thoughts?

Who knows. I wish I was more faithful writing in this space. But the truth is, I often don't know what to write. I don't know because I have so many thoughts flying around my brain that I don't always feel like putting into words. Sorry about that. 

But just so everyone knows, I'm still alive! And doing well. Really, really well. Knox and I have been so inspired by the people we are surrounded by in Fredericksburg. We have been challenged by these friends, encouraged to seek our passions, and it has allowed us learn new things about ourselves.

This seems so silly, but I have learned that I am a creative person. Is that strange? That at twenty three, I am just now learning that about myself? I have spent so many years feeling insecure by my lack of creativity. I can barely draw a picture of a house, let alone paint, and my hand writing hasn't changed since the fifth grade. But regardless of that, I am creative. I am a person of worth that can create things. Good things! 

I have discovered my passion of cooking and baking, and the art of creating something to bring happiness and nutrition to others. Breaking bread with others is biblical. And I just so happen to enjoy the bread baking process! It is truly an art. There have been countless times when my bread didn't rise, and my sweet hubs eats the most dense, heavy bread the following week. But then there are weeks where my pies have brought smiles to those around me, and it is just plain fun. 

All this to say, I hope to start blogging more. Not that I think my life is super important, but because I think words are. 

Dear friends, you are creative. You have something uniquely designed in each of you that MATTERS. And is just really cool. You can create neat and dear things for others. That passion is worth fighting for. Your individuality and unique goodness is worth fighting for. 

Happy monday!

Saturday, July 13, 2013

lost (and found!)

It has been way too long and I can't even begin to explain all that has been going on lately, I thought the best way would be through some photos.

Today I'm thankful for:
the perfect day that still brings tears to my eyes anytime I think about it
and parents that made our day so special and with so much love
the husband that I have been praying for since I was little, that encourages me, challenges me, and leads me
a honeymoon that was filled with fresh air, blue skies,
and lots of mountains
our very first home that is simple and tucked away in the hill country of Texas
our backyard facing a farm
and the hilarious goats we spoil with apples
green green (green!) smoothies
fun cook books, experimenting in the kitchen
and a sweet taste tester
families that go above and beyond to love their neighbors and for their sweet children that brings so much joy to my life
living in a small town that has long horns in their 4th of July parade
wrap around porches that have a swing facing the sunset
new friends and phone calls with precious old friends
skype, I am so thankful for you, and getting to talk with family that I already miss a whole lot.
a sweet sister who is serving and loving some babies in Haiti. Check out her blog *here*

Friends, I hope you seek freedom in this: though we may feel so completely lost and overwhelmed, we are called *His BELOVED*. And we certainly are found, wherever it is that we are. Waiting on tables, studying for summer school, serving in the mission field, or taking care of your children. You are found! You are His beloved. Rest in that truth today. 

Happy Saturday!

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

39 days!

A big thanks to Jared Tseng for blessing us with the God given talent he has to take beautiful pictures! We had to much fun taking them and Knox and I love them so much. We will be looking at these for a long time!

Check Jared Tseng Photography out!

Sunday, January 13, 2013

the unknown

I started this blog after my freshman year of college in hopes to put into words my trip to Ethiopia. I didn't know it would turn into months of processing the time I had there and the heartbreak that I felt, as well as all of the clashing emotions of the relief I felt returning home and heartache of leaving. I had no idea that I would keep up with this blog through my sophomore year, where I used it to post different things I coveted and clothes I would love to have. Imagine my surprise when I kept this blog during my junior year to write down sweet moments with the Lord and with my friends in college. Beginning of my junior year, God called me back to Africa. He called me to Kenya for a month. I didn't know what to expect. So I answered that calling, raised money, packed up my things and went. I had no idea what I would be doing during my time there. But He did. 

He called me to learn and grow. To love more. To sacrifice more. To cry more. To have my heart broken more for what breaks His. To use the gifts He has blessed me with more. To glorify His name in all that I can do and in anyway that I possibly could, more. To give more. To laugh more. To trust Him more. To hand over things to Him I hadn't given up yet. And to have greater faith.

And then I came back from Kenya with my heart swelling more than I've ever felt and my mind running a mile a minute. I couldn't imagine what He had in store for my life, but I knew that He had lit something in my heart. Something that I know for certain can never be distinguished. So I used this place to type out my thoughts and process and grow.

So senior year (fall) happened, and I still managed to keep up with the blog. To write about the hearts I missed in Kenya and mine that I left there. And more ramblings about how I don't know the next step in my life and that I'm a senior so I'm supposed have figured this out already sophomore year.  I didn't know that senior year would be full of precious time with friends, taking in the last semester of Auburn, a chapter in my life that was just the greatest in a town that I grew up in. I had no idea that I would be engaged to my best friend and the man that I love and will soon call my husband. But how sweet it was to be able to share such a special time for us two on this space. 

So here I am, finishing my senior year of college, writing in this same blog that I started when I had no idea the journey I was about to embark on. Did I mention I'm going to marry the greatest guy ever? And that we no longer have to do 14 hour long distance?! Now I'm in Austin, 14 hours away from home, taking part in at a great nonprofit with some great new roommates. My prayer is to take each day and soak in as much love and beauty and life that God has granted me to see and enjoy. To laugh a lot, to worry less, and to love more. 

So here goes to another semester, full of unknowns and adventures. I have a peace and a joy for what God has granted me and I have a trust that He will continue to be faithful to my journey this semester. God has been so good and I know He will continue to reveal Himself to me this semester as I intern and prepare for marriage. So as He continues to reveal Himself, I will continue to write. As long as I can continue to find the words and have sweet friends faithfully praying over my adventure.

Sending love out to everyone today!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

psalm 34:3

"Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt His name together" 

I will be joyful ALWAYS because
God is good
He calls me His beloved
He fills my soul to the brim
He is faithful
I will spend forever with my Father
He has allowed Knox and I to glorify His name together
Because in Knox I have found the one my soul loves
I'm going to marry my best friend
And God promises us ETERNITY in heaven


I love that word.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Project Go

It's that time of year again! This time last year my heart was sold to interning with Project Go and I was filling out an application for the summer. It makes me smile just thinking about how I had no idea how much I was about to experience. And I feel blessed with the opportunity to share my experiences with you. To share my friends stories. To share my heart and how the Lord worked in it in a way I've never experienced. So in hopes of doing, without going on for pages and pages, here are a few things (of thousands) you will experience if you intern with Project Go:

1. There will be laughter. Sometimes so much laughter that your stomach hurts, aka belly laughin. One of my sweet friends, Zippi, laughed with her whole soul. Her whole body would shake and she would burst out a laughter that could be heard for miles. Her smile brought life to everyone around her. There will be so much laughter. 

2. There will be people surrounding you that will show you what working hard and doing it well looks like. The staff do all they can to teach their kids. And the children view school as a gift, not an obligation. You will see so many people working hard

3. There will be lots of dancing. Because when you have so much peace and joy in this life, God makes you dance. There will be dancing of the heart and in your spirit as He does work in your life. There is nothing sweeter than dancing with these babies.

4. There will be joy. Joy goes further than happiness, it takes over your whole heart and body. That joy will overflow from you and pour out onto others. I've never experienced joy like this. This kind of joy, that fills your heart so full is from seeing this joy in the hearts and lives of those around you. There will be so much joy.

5. There will be giving. Of your heart, your attention, your time, your strength. You will be exhausted at the end of the day because you don't know how you gave all that you had. God wakes you up the next morning with the desire to give again, because He has faithfully refilled you. You will give all that you can for your babies and for the people around you. Selflessly and intentionally.

6. There will be new lessons for you to learn. How to love your neighbor well, how to love your God more faithfully, how to give your life fully for Him. You will be humbled. And you will be taught by your kids and will see Jesus in them. 

7. There will be prayer. You will fall on your face before the Lord because you are weak, inadequate, and you can't do anything without Him. You will cling to prayer and what a sweet time talking with the Father.

8. There will be sweet little hands, little hearts, little babies. You will get to hold and hug and love these little hands. 

9. There will be babies who have never heard how loved they are before. You will get to tell these babies how loved they are by God, by their families, and by you. Loving these babies with my whole heart has been one of the sweetest things God has blessed me with. God calls them each by name, and seeing their face light up when you call them by name will bring you so much joy.

10. There will be poverty that breaks your heart. There will be kids who don't have shoes, there will be kids who don't have parents. By our worldly standards, they are poor. But they are so rich in love. Rich in their love for God and for others. Money doesn't fix us or make our lives whole, Jesus does. 

11. There will be beautiful animals. Of all kinds. And lots and lots of adventuring! There will be times when you question how cool the zoo's back home are... because they have nothing on the giraffes and elephants orphanage.

12. There will be tears. The good kind and the sad kind. There will be tough goodbyes. You will have to swallow back your tears and your fear of the unknown. And trust that though you are leaving this sweet place, God is not. It won't be easy to leave, but you will leave with a deep sense of thankfulness and peace in the Lord. You will wonder what your babies are doing right now, or if they are doing well. You will have dreams of returning back. But God is the great protector, and He is faithful. And that's what I rest in. There will be tears.

13. There will be growth. God puts a calling on your heart to serve and He will be faithful in that. He will provide. There will be challenges. But with those challenges, there will be growth. You will grow into the person God has created you to be. How sweet that is. 

14. There will be community. How thankful I am for Liz and Hannah and the community we had in Kenya. There will be friendship and a bond formed on the foundation of God. This community will bring you joy, encourage you, and leave you with lots to be thankful for.

15. There will be beauty. In everything that surrounds you. In what God has created. God is in these countries. You may be traveling to serve God and teach others about Him, but make no mistake, He is already there. He is dwelling in the lives, He is seen in the sunsets and in the smiles. He is there. And I am so thankful for that.

If you'd like to serve for this next summer, check out:

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Dear Mary

(taking after my favorite blog todays letters)

Dear Mary,
I miss you so so much today. You don't know Jesus yet and you come from a muslim home but I know that He dwells in your spirit, your words, your smile. I pray that you will accept Him into your heart. I pray you remember how precious and loved you are. I know that both of your parents have passed away and you have been separated from your siblings, but I pray you know that you are eternally adopted. He can't wait to share your inheritance of His Kingdom with you. You are a daughter of God. You are loved. I wish I could give you a big hug right now! And paint your nails and remind you how loved you are. I can't wait to see you again soon.   

Dear anyone and everyone who reads this,
pray with me today for Mary. That she will know the Father's love for her. That she will know Jesus as her savior. That regardless of the hardships she faces here on earth, she is loved and adored by the God that created her. That she will be eternally adopted into His Kingdom. That someone at the BCC right now is giving her a hug and reminding her that she is God's beloved. Pray that she seeks God as her refuge and strength.